Saturday, October 31, 2009

Happy Halloween!

Google is very cute today... you have to check it out. Put your cursor over the word Google, notice how it says Click or Treat. So click it! Then click again and again!

Halloween Google

Tim and I have two Halloween parties this weekend. First one was last night, and second is tonight. We will go after our trick or treaters have finished (around 8pm). We are dressed up as characters from the original Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory movie. I am Violet Beauregarde, who turns into a blueberry after chewing on an Everlasting Gobstopper ("Violet! You're turning violet, Violet!"), and Tim is one of the Oompa Loompas. We had planned for Tim to go as Willie Wonka, even buying a purple blazer at the thrift store, but his admin Stacey's husband had made the Oompa Loompa costume, and let us borrow it!

Willie Wonka costumes

"Oompa Loompa Doompa Dee Do
I've got another puzzle for you
Oompa Loompa Doompa Da Dee
If you are wise you'll listen to me
Gum chewing is fine if it's once in a while
It stops you from smoking and brightens up your smile
But it's repulsive revolting and wrong
Chewing and chewing all day long
The way that a cow does
Oompa Loompa Doompa Dee Da
Given good manners you will go far
You will live in happiness too
Like the Oompa Loompa Doompa Dee Do!"

Here is the entire scene:
Willie Wonka - Demise of Violet Beauregarde

The sardonic commentary of the other characters is hilarious.

"Shall we roll on?"

I've got a golden ticket!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Flu vaccinations

This fall, Tim and I had several out of state trips planned. We were to fly to Michigan for our annual vacation in mid-September, and then I had to fly to Boston for my Dad's 80th birthday party and then to Michigan to celebrate the in-laws' 50th wedding anniversary in the same week, mid-October.

As news of the flu pandemic spread, I became more and more nervous. Pregnant women were listed as the most high risk to come down with H1N1 flu and suffer severe complications. I talked to my regular doctor's office and they weren't concerned at all, and didn't expect to have any vaccines. They would be offering seasonal flu vaccines, but not until the middle of October, while I was away. My obstetricians' office, however, said if I could get my hands on either vaccine, to definitely get inoculated. They are very concerned.

I did a lot of research into flu vaccines last fall when I was pregnant. I learned it is best to get the preservative-free version if its available. In Missouri, it is actually a state requirement for pregnant patients.

I discovered that our local Walgreens Pharmacy offers flu shots from the pharmacist. They also have a walk-in Care Clinic. The pharmacy would be able to give me a shot, while I was in my first trimester, as long as a I had a doctor's prescription. The Care Clinic's policy was no shots to pregnant women in their first trimester. So one afternoon, before my September trip, I arranged for the OB to fax in my Rx for the seasonal flu shot. When I arrived, the pharmacist was too busy to give me the shot. So she asked the clinic to do it. But I knew they wouldn't based on their policy. When the nurse gave me the form to fill out, I lied and said I was 14 and a half weeks pregnant (second trimester). I really was only ten and a half weeks. While we chatted, I learned she had been a nurse in the NICU of the hospital where I had given birth to Thomas. But she had worked days, then, so wouldn't have seen him. But it was still an interesting coincidence. (Walgreens has since run out of the vaccine.)

Vaccinations take three weeks to be fully effective. So although I wasn't really covered during the first flights, I was covered for my October travel. Since I did it so early this fall, I might have to redo it again in late winter. I'm still not sure how that works, so will ask my OB.

I've been anxiously awaiting the arrival of the H1N1 flu vaccines into our part of the country. They arrived two weeks ago at our local County Health Department. But the first ones they received were the inhalation type, which is not allowed for pregnant women or children with compromised immune systems. (This is because it contains live virus.) It has been offered to health care workers and healthy children under the age of five. Before I left for our October trips, I asked my OB to mail me a prescription for the H1N1 vax, just so I would have it on hand in case I needed it. They were great about it and sent one to me.

I made the County Health Department's web site our internet browser home page, so I would easily learn when they had the vaccines on hand. They offer free vax clinics on Wednesdays in Parkville and Fridays in Platte City. Yesterday morning, before heading to the dentist, I checked to see if they had the preservative-free version, yet. Finally, the words I was waiting to see! "The Platte County Health Department is now offering H1N1 vaccination clinics for the following priority groups, as identified by the CDC: Pregnant women (you must present an order from your Physician)." So after I went to my dental check-up, I dropped by the clinic. I had to wait about half an hour in line, made up mostly of people with little children, and several other pregnant women. No one was coughing or sneezing, so that was a relief.

So now I have been vaccinated! I am so glad. Two weeks ago, while I was away in Boston, Tim said he felt very flu-ish. By the time he came to Michigan, he was still under the weather and his symptoms started to become more like from a cold infection. Fortunately, I did not catch anything from him.

Today, on my April due date message board was the following message, "Please pray for my cousin, Chrissy. She got married this summer, and got pregnant right after - one of the happiest times of her life. She recently got H1N1. She was hospitalized with it for a week and then released. Unfortunately she's now developed Pneumonia and is back in the hospital. Things are not going as well as we would hope and her family and new husband are beside themselves. I'd appreciate any prayers you're willing to give."

Thirty-seven percent of all pregnant women with flu symptoms in our country have been hospitalized. Although pregnant women make up only 1% of the US population, they make up 6% of all confirmed H1N1 deaths. As of August 21st, 28 pregnant women have died from the H1N1 flu. Although many of these women had underlying medical conditions, not all of them did.

As Tim said to me one day, "I cannot believe that you are pregnant in the middle of the first pandemic to hit our country in years!"

People can debate the safety of the flu vaccine, but I could not in good conscience NOT get vaccinated and leave my husband open to the possibility of becoming a widower who lost his son, his wife, and his two daughters all in the space of one year. This has been my very real fear since I got pregnant in July.

Three more weeks until it becomes effective!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The "big" anatomy ultrasound

Yesterday was our anatomy ultrasound. This is the point in the pregnancy when we learned that Thomas had his heart defect, so Tim and I have been nervous wrecks...

I woke up too early Tuesday morning, ended up feeling a little sick to my stomach, tried to sleep in after breakfast, then headed off to the appointment with Tim. It was at 9:45am, at 10:15 the tech finally came out and told me she wanted me to wait to draw my bloodwork first! I'm thinking, doesn't she know we are anxious??!

Anyhoo... we finally got in for the scan, she started with every body part and left the heart for last! But both babies have good looking four chamber hearts. With Thomas, his just looked like a two-chamber heart, so the difference was really clear. We were SO relieved. She videotaped nearly the whole scan.

So she asked us if we wanted to know the gender, and I asked her if she could just verify for us afterwards that one of them is a boy. I didn't want to know which baby (A or B), just that at least one of them was. So we averted our eyes whenever she needed to scan 'down there'. (Although Tim admitted later he did see Baby B!)

Then she had me get up and use the bathroom so they could measure my cervix with a vaginal ultrasound. (They do this for twin pregnancies to prevent "preterm labor" (PTL).) I said, "oh, so can you just confirm that at least one of them is a boy?" And she just stared at me like a deer caught in the headlights. Now, I was 90% sure I was having two boys. So I stared back at her, "What are you not saying?" And she gave this kind of helpless shrug. "Are you saying we are having TWO GIRLS?!" I asked, flabbergasted. And the tech said, "I don't know how to tell you that neither is a boy, when you don't want to know the gender!" I just had to laugh. I can NOT believe we are having two girls. When the doc came in, he confirmed it for us, too. There really is NOTHING between their legs, which were wide open!

So we are no longer Team Green (i.e. not finding out gender before birth) and I told Tim we may as well tell everyone since I had been so sure it was boys. (Not sure if you remember my story posted on the CarePages, but the week before I cycled, I had this other-worldly message that I was going to get pregnant, and I was going to have twin boys. I even saw the ultrasounds!) I had just really wanted to know what it was like to raise a baby boy, I am going to miss that. I did joke to Tim that we will just have to try again, and at least he said a half-hearted "yeah".

So count us Team Pink!

At least Thomas was a surprise....lol....

This is the rest of the info we learned during the anatomy scan (17w1d): Baby A is measuring ahead at 17w5d (a good thing), heartrate is 147bpm, weight 0.8 oz; Baby B measures 17w3d, 156bpm, and 0.7oz; my cervix measures great at 5cm (normal is 3cm, anything above 2.5 is good). So hopefully these little girls aren't going anywhere anytime soon!

4th ultrasound

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Time to start the next pregnancy blogging!

OK, so I am a little behind. Tim and I cycled again with the same doctors who helped us conceive Thomas. Our first positive pregnancy test was on July 23rd. Our due date is April 5, 2010, the day after Easter. We were happy to see heartbeats at the first ultrasound, but a little nervous since there were two babies!

First ultrasound

Three weeks later, we went in for our second ultrasound. Babies were both doing well, and looking very much like little gummy bears!

Second ultrasound

Our next ultrasound was a diagnostic test to measure the folds in the babies' necks. This is called an NT scan. Both babies did very well and combined with the bloodwork they did, our risk for genetic diseases is very small.



I decided to post updates about the pregnancy here on this old blog of mine, where I wrote about my pregnancy with Thomas, because I feel his CarePages website is really for him. I will probably still post here about my feelings, too, or whatever is on my mind.

But for now, it is nice to start blogging again about being pregnant!

By the way, I have added some links to blogs that I follow, mostly other women who have lost children, or who also traveled the long infertility road with me.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

I’ll kiss it away

[I had tried to publish this on November 25th, when Thomas was three days old, but I could not get Blogger to work. I just found this post saved as a text file on my computer, and thought I would still share it with you. Notice the butterflies lyric...]

Some of you know that I participate in an email "chat" group with people from the town we used to live in. One of the participants is a woman from Austria. She sent me the following YouTube video link and even posted some comments about me. It is interesting how we can touch people across the world so easily via the Internet.

The song is by Sarah Connor, called I'll Kiss It Away. This beautiful song is about Sarah' daughter Summer, who also has a congenital heart defect.

The lyrics are:
Twenty days and Twenty nights I’m sitting right here by your side
Surrounded by the monitors listening to you sigh
You’re sleeping so peacefully, sometimes you’re smiling in your dreams
Lord, why had it to be her, why didn’t you pick me
Until the day you were born, still hoping they were wrong
But now I’m here to make you strong,

I’m with you..
I’ll carry your pain, whenever you fall again
I will help you stand, just reach out your hand
When your world is dark, or you’re hurt in your heart
Come what may, I’ll kiss it away

Come what may, I’ll kiss it away

Sing softly into your ear, your hand is wrapped around my finger
Kiss your eyes, whisper “I am here and this won’t take much longer”
And now we’re having fries, you’re chasing butterflies
And show the world you want to fight, oh yes you do

I’m with you..
I’ll carry your pain, whenever you fall again
I will help you stand, just reach out your hand
When your world is dark, or you’re hurt in your heart
Come what may, I’ll kiss it away

In the darkness of the night I’ll be there to hold you tight
And until my final day, I will guide you, come what may
Come what may…

I’ll carry your pain, whenever you fall again
I will help you stand, just reach out your hand
When your world is dark, or you’re hurt in your heart
Come what may, I’ll kiss it away
Come what may, I’ll kiss it away

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Santa's visit


On Thursday, December 18, in the morning, Santa Claus came to visit Thomas in the hospital. He left this card with his photograph for us. This is Thomas' last picture. He is surrounded by his little animals, and sucking away on his vanilla pacifer. He looks as sweet as can be, and Santa is a right jolly old elf.

Thank you Santa for visiting Thomas. I'm just sorry he was asleep and couldn't tell you what he wanted most for Christmas.

(Santa came as part of Santa's Gift.)

Monday, December 8, 2008

Thomas' baptism

On Friday, November 28, we were told that a Chaplain at Children's Mercy Hospital could provide us with a Catholic rite of Baptism, if we were interested. They mentioned this since Thomas was going to be undergoing open heart surgery the following Monday. Since we were interested, we called the Chaplain and said we were able to do it right away if she was available.

Baptismal artifactsShe brought up three simple Christening gowns, which were really just front cutouts that one could lay across the top of a baby, without having to worry about tubes and other medical apparatus. We picked one of the three for Thomas to wear.

The Chaplain, Mary Anne, Tim, and I gathered beside Thomas' bassinet, and closed the curtains around his area. Becky, the Chaplain, read a verse from the book of Matthew: "Then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them. Jesus said, 'Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.' "

She took a little seashell which contained holy water and poured a little bit out on Thomas' forehead three times as she said, "I baptize you in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit."

When she was done, she gave us the shell to keep, along with a little gift and a green beaded bracelet with a saints charm on it (Saints Patrick and Bridget). The gift was a small plaque/ornament that showed a little boy praying with a stuffed bunny rabbit (or puppy dog) by his knees, with the phrase "God bless this precious little boy entrusted to our care." She also said we could keep the baptismal gown.

Becky said that the Roman Catholic Church authorizes chaplains to do baptisms like these in special circumstances, and that we can still have a more formal affair later in our church.

Certificate of Baptism